Jason Cotton's Blog

As a society we have misplaced our idea of a hero. When did a sports star that can throw a football but then goes and beats his wife become our hero? To me a hero is someone who stands up against the norm or the odds and says fuck you all this is the right thing to do. Or doesn’t give up on that kid. Heroes are those single parents doing everything in their power to make sure their child is taken care of and safe.

A teacher that gives a shit and doesn’t just push a kid through the system.

Those are heroes. Not Britney Spears, not Paris Hiltons.

Who’s your hero?

Here is mine

I just got the below quote in an email today. Perfect timing with my mood lately. Something to add to the quote is also Tomorrow may never come.

“Somebody should tell us, right at the start of our lives, that we are dying. Then we might live life to the limit, every minute of every day. Do it! I say. Whatever you want to do, do it now! There are only so many tomorrows.”
~ Michael Landon

I know I know a bad pun especially coming from me.  I know I haven’t posted in a long time and people are wondering and giving me nudges to talk some more.  But lately I’ve not been in the mood to, see I’ve been having some problems with the chemotherapy treatment.  I’ve explained the way chemo works and the way that it’s like a roller coaster but this time that dip of the low has been really low.  Continue reading →

I’m going to kind of respond to a comment.  Now I’m not mad nor am I picking on her for her comment. 

 ”ignorance is bliss”

In many ways yes ignorance is bliss.  As a child we grew up in that blissful state and many time as adults we walk around ignorant of many things until we are directly faced with them.

But in a case like cancer ignorance isn’t bliss.  It’s death to put it bluntly.  If you put blind faith in Doctors and institutes without educating yourself plain and simple you will die.  When I started all of this I had someone teach me that and to not except no for an answer.  I also decided early on that I would share my experience and be open with everything so others can learn and see how something like cancer can be so truelly horrible but in ways  it does bring out the good in people.

So I will continue to be numbers and facts the good the bad so others can learn and possibly just possibly someone down the road will learn from my experience and not have to go through as bad of an experience that I have.

Instead of the up days I generally get after getting blood and my body recovering from chemo.  Mine has been slipping still. I’ve explained the cycle of chemo before but this one is different.  Instead of those rebuilding days after the chemo has been doing its job, meaning it’s killing all fast growing cells.  Well since my treatment I’ve recieved 1 platelette transfusion and 1 unit of blood.  Now for those that don’t know that is a lot.  Especially in the time frame that it has been in.  My body has continued to slip.  Yes I had the “high” days after getting the transfusions and yes I over did it staying up to late but this morning when I went to the clinic my RBC (red blood Cell) count is back down to 10 again.  After getting that much blood I should be closer to normal.  Thankfully my WBC (White Blood Cell) count is high enough to be able to socialize, within reason.  Its not like I can go to a bar and drink but I can get out.  Be careful but get out. Continue reading →