Jason Cotton's Blog
My Fight, My Life, My views on life
When the simple things aren’t so simple
Everyone knows about my move I think, if you don’t scroll back and you’ll see it and you’ll see that I got bruised up pretty bad. Well a simple bruise isn’t so simple for me it seems. One of my bruises was bad enough that that lovely thing called cancer decided to make a new home in my leg. Soooo next week I have another surgery to have them evicted, hell they didn’t pay rent get the hell out is my thought on it.
I’m doing O.K.
This time around was different, it wasn’t as hard on my body as I expected it, even though I went for a 3fer. King of understatements I know, “Wasn’t bad? But Jason, dude, you died three times.” Yeah, I know, but I’m back aren’t I?
I’ll be honest with you guys, right now my head’s not on straight there’s some things that happened this time that….. Well I’m just a bit off my game right now you could say. So if you are one of the ones who noticed and are worried it’s ok, I’m just trying to put all the puzzle pieces back together.
This week reminded me of something. People care. I don’t doubt that the least bit, if they didn’t they wouldn’t check out my blog or check on me. But don’t be surprised with my answer when you ask me how I’m doing, because you’ll probably get the same answer no matter what. “I’m doing ok.” It’s not that I’m trying to be some macho guy saying I can handle this on my own I don’t need your sympathy. It’s out of protection, people just don’t know what to say or think if I don’t say, “I’m doing ok.” I realized long ago that they ask out of really not know what else to ask. And don’t stop asking even if I am in a grumpy mood. I’m alive I’m out of bed and I’m out of the hospital, and I’ve lived longer than those fuckers ever thought I would. So yeah “I’m doing O.K.”
Update Waking
Today Jason surprised us all by opening his eyes and looking around. He was still on full life support when he did this. The day nurse noticed him moving immediately and came into his room to make sure he didn’t panic and pull out anything. He was only semi cognitive at this time, and was out of it again after only a few short minutes.
After about 40 minutes of care most but not all of the life support was removed and Jason was breathing fully on his own.
He has processed almost all of the chemotherapy and his blood is no longer toxic to his organs, another hurdle down. The next hurdle is to cope with the effects of the chemotherapy killing all of the fast growing cells, this includes Red blood cells or white blood cells.
Jason likes to use music to show his moods and I heard this song on his computer and felt this was fitting.
Well he has woke up…….
The fight continues
Jason is progressing through his treatment as expected. He is on life support again to help him process the chemo and after a couple hiccups in the beginning, things are calmer and his will to survive is strong. He has processed about half of the toxins already! He can always use some word of encouragement so please feel free to leave him messages on his 800 number and Bea will play them for him.
Thank you,
Donnett
The Fight
I thought I would post for Jason to let you all know how he is doing. He started chemo yesterday morning and has officially made it through the 24 hour infusion. Now he is on to the hard part, the processing. This is where he runs into trouble because there is sooo much work to be done. This will take days, not hours. We are expecting “speed bumps” as Jason likes to call them but we all know that he is a fighter!
Donnett
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