Retrospect
ret·ro·spect /ˈretrəˌspekt/Noun: A survey or review of a past course of events or period of time.
four years ago this moment and for thenext two weeks was the worst in my life. I was in the fight for my life. I was flatlined just now 4 years ago. Dead and brought back to fight more.
Today now I sit alive knowing I have nothing but life ahead of me.