It’s an old saying but it’s pretty fitting. This post follows the lines of a previous post “You can’t” We assume things about people based on appearances and our image of that person not on their merit. Have you ever wondered why we do that? We see someone and don’t know them from Adam or Eve yet we instantaneously will pass judgement in one form or another on that person.
Why do we do this? I don’t have the answer I’m just posing a question to something that I myself am guilty at doing. It was/is a fault I have and am a target of so many times. Funny how it took a very special someone pointing out that I was doing to others what I complained and bitched about so much when done to me. Now that I’ve seen what I used to do it annoys me even more. Especially when it’s directed at me.
Next time you look at someone try to see them for who they are instead of passing a judgement. You may be surprised at what you really find .
Following a trend and looking back to that fateful year, today of 08. Having cancer taught me so much about myself but also taught me so little. Today those years ago I was about to go to Seattle and go into the absolute hardest treatment of my life and the roughest. I developed a mindset to be able to cope with it was it healthy? Looking back at it no it wasn’t I carry it with me even today. Life has a way of reminding us that we aren’t as perfect as we thought we were, or knew as much as we thought. I’m just a babbler of bullshit that people think is profound. I have a lot to learn about myself and I have a lot of things to grow with. I’m lucky though, really damn lucky. I have Crystal Mcgee, Donnett Cotton Emch, Jeremy Simpson, and a whole group of friends who help keep me straight and on the right course. My sagely advice ladies and gents? Nothing absolutely nothing I don’t have the answers for myself or anyone else.
I know I haven’t written I haven’t been in the mood and when I have been in the mood to be honest know one would really understand what I’d write about. Even other cancer patients would be hard pressed to. I’ve been faking it since I’ve been back from Seattle, acting like nothing is wrong but it has been. When I died last time it’s taken a lot out of me and it seeded doubts.
For the first time in a very long time I’ve doubted myself to beat this. People ask me all the time what it is that drives me to fight when I have medical staff telling me left and right that I’m terminal. I’ve been labeled terminal for many years and have been fighting it still because of this little thing in my character.
Until tonight I didn’t really know what it was. Its a character flaw. Yes flaw. I’ve had it for most of my life. When I don’t like something I block it out. Bury it, don’t believe it and go about my merry way, believing otherwise until one day I’m forced to see it for what it is. Until that day comes I continue to ignore it. And who gets hurt? Me. Who’s to blame? Me. I’m told the truth up front but it is me and my nature not to believe.
My eyes were opened wide this time. Continue reading
I’m not talking about just the television but also the radio and the internet. How long do we have to hear about that fat cow Anna Nicole Smith, or that train wreck Brittany Spears?
I got up last week and there plastered all over the web and TV. Patrick Swayze has Pancreatic cancer. So fucking what. Yeah I’m bitter, he is a 1 movie hit has been that has cancer and is on all the morning shows and all over the internet. What makes him having cancer news worthy? Now I’m not saying this because I want recognition, because to be honest I don’t give a shit. But what about that 2 year old that sat across from me last week that has Hodgkins. Or better yet what about the man sitting across from me that has terminal liver cancer. Now his story is worthy of telling. He’s a professor at a local college and even though he is going to die shortly he continues to teach. When you ask him why his answer….. “To not pass on my knowledge would be a crime to manhood. Our youth depend on people like me to teach them. While I’m able I will continue to teach.”
Or the family that has sold their home and the father sold his business so his 17 year old daughter can get treatment. Now that is sacrifice, and soon they won’t be able to afford the treatment she needs and will probably not get it because our medical system has become so fucked up that we have forgotten that we are dealing with human lives here.
Who’s telling their stories? They aren’t even a blip on the media radar. It’s these peoples stories who should be told not some half ass has been actor that is living the high life.