Anger, I actually feel we deal, cope and have anger in our lives more than the polar opposite love.
Really think about it. That person who cut you off. The no service customer service person. I could go on and on with the list.
My question is why? Why do we allow anger to be such a force?
The simple answer is because it’s easy. The path of least resistance and through the years society has taught us that it’s an appropriate behavior. I’m just as guilty as the I ask you to try like I am. I am trying to change this and let us as individuals teach society instead of society teaching us and our children.
I knew last week but today is the official day. Two years of remission.
Those who have been a part of this journey/ride need no introductions they know who they are and if you don’t well you need to go back and read some to see who they are, I thank you yet again for staying with me.
Now those doctor’s that told me to go home and take care of my affairs I say to you once again fuck you all. I fought to win you bastards.
A simple date and a simple number. How is it that they can make one smile so much?
Its simple. I’m living now not fighting for my life nor am I anywhere near death in body or spirit.
Here is to 30 days of living and to more records to be made.
I’m anxious about this weekend. I know my numbers and results already and I know I’m clean of cancer still. So why am I anxious and a bit afraid of Saturday? I have no clue, but I’m anxious and a bit afraid waiting for that shoe to drop. Murphy has had a way of sticking his nose into my business. Well this time Murphy if you get anywhere near me and my life I’m gonna knock your ass out.
What to write what to post? Do I write about work? Love? Life? Cancer?
To be honest one of the reasons I’ve not written much is that I have been trying to step more and more away from the cancer world and not allow it to control my life and actions. I’m about to pass my old record for remission and I’m coming up on my two year mark. If I write about cancer I feel like I’m taking steps backwards, living in the past per say. Cancer effected me and my loved ones in so many painful ways that I want to move on from that. And move on from the person that I was while going through my fight.
In 5 days I’m entering a new chapter of my life. What does it hold for me?
I don’t know but the adventure will be fun.