Cancer

The park isn’t closed

As I said in the last blog cancer is on the back burner but it’s effects are still running through my system.  Today my hands were swollen and yellowish and my skin was pale.  So off I went to the hospital I went to get worked on again then sleep the afternoon away.  After 10 years of damaging my system with the drugs and treatments, my body has taken a toll.

Is all the damage worth it?

Hell yes it is, I’m still alive

The ride is over

The long ride is pulling into the station for the last time. I want to thank everyone who has supported me, whether it be up close or from afar.

10years 5months 4days, 43 deaths that count, over 120 surgeries, so many different treatments that it’s hard for me to keep them all straight. This last being stem cell research, me being the first human to go through it, by far the easiest least painful treatment I’ve been through.

My counts you ask? .00002, that being 2 parts per billion. To give you an idea od scope when I started all of this is was at 27,434.00.

This may sound like a downer post, it’s not I’m extremely happy right now, but you have to understand I’ve been here before. Right now I want to try my hardest to look forward.

This ride is shutting down for along time and hope to never be started up again, let’s enjoy the other rides in the park. If this ride decides one day to open it will be one rider short. Again thank you for riding along with me.

Who do you get your strength from?

So many times I sit and write about myself and my life but what about those around me?  The ones who’ve help me fight this demon?   They are the unsung heroes, without them I’d not be able to fight like I do or as long as I have. Each of them offers something. Continue reading

Rough Day

Worked this morning then did my radiation treatment. I’m worn out from of course over doing it and going back to work already. I know I know I go back to early and over do it…. But that’s not what makes today so hard on me.

See Maggie is in the other room in her kennel because it’s not safe for her to be around me while I’m radioactive. Problem is she “know’s” daddy’s home, even though I’ve not said a word or gone close to that room she know’s it’s me. Now I’m sitting quarantined for the next 18 hours and my lil love monster can’t come near me and she so wants to.

Know what I’m listening to? Her crying for her daddy.

Aftermath

People may think that I hate the surgeries and treatments. I don’t like them that’s for sure but the part that I don’t like the most is the feeling afterwards.

See to get to my lung they had to go through my rib cage through my muscle wall and spread my ribs. Have you ever broken your ribs? Hurts to breath hurts to lay down it just, well hurts.

It’s worth it though they got all of the spot and so far my numbers are looking great.

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